tobacco stained, wine stained, yogurt, coffee and come stained sheets

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“So boring,” she groaned into the pillow. “So boring, so boring, so boring. All I do is lie in this filthy bed and smoke and talk and sleep and put that thing that manages to get hard into my anatomical depressions. I hate it, I loathe myself and you and Paris and everything that’s stinking of decomposition. I’m going to buy a clock, Macdonald, an alarm clock, and set it for eight o’clock and find out what the world’s doing in the morning and push into crowded cafeterias at one o’clock and read newspapers and see the latest films and hate the bad guys and like the good guys and live with life and die when I’m dead. I’m going to drink one cup of coffee in the morning and one cup of wine at night. I’m going to sleep when it’s dark and wake when that bell calls me and I’m going to sleep alone, all alone, until I find a man who knows when I’m in the bed with him and wants me there and keeps me there.”

“And you’ll sleep for exactly eight hours and fuck for exactly twenty-two minutes every Saturday night. And be pregnant exactly eighteen months and have exactly two children, an exact boy and an equally exact girl and live exactly as long as you breathe and die exactly once, being exactly exact all the time so that exactly nothing happens except exactly.”